I’m sorry about the frozen ground
I say to the fox,
who has been scratching
at it all morning, looking for it to soften.
I think of you, suffocating
in the hospital bed,
my repeated I’m so sorry.
Your gasps:
I just,
I just,
I just,
until you were gone.
I just wanted
to save you
or let you go. Before
the very end, when I held the roses close
for you to see, when you
rubbed the petals
between your finger and thumb,
you asked me
to touch them, too,
to remember how fine it is
to feel something tender.

Stephanie McCarley Dugger’s collection of poetry, Either Way You’re Done (2017), was published by Sundress Publications and their chapbook, Sterling (Paper Nautilus, 2015), was winner of the Vella Chapbook contest. Their essays and poems have appeared or are forthcoming in Arts & Letters, Baltimore Review, Mid-American Review, Poet Lore, Spoon River Poetry Review, Tampa Review, and other journals. They teach Creative Writing at Auburn University at Montgomery and also serve as Creative Nonfiction editor at Los Angeles Review and Thirteen Bridges Review.
