Listening to Michael Jackson In A Closet

& on a kitchen floor & as a child & in our first
apartment several stops from DC & on the way
to the white house & in a bedroom of seven
refugees & as a daughter who brought
American music from Ukraine
back to America & as a mother
windows down blaring Billy Jean
through Ringgold Street in South
Philadelphia & in the bath drowning
deflated rubber ducks & when
the bubbles have left cloudy water
& my son demands Alexa play
Thriller & Alexa volume 10 & Alexa play it
again louder & play in English Alexa & does he
really turn into a volk meaning wolf
& Mama be a zombie & what’s zombie
in Russian? & Mama play zombie tag
& Mama tantzui, dance & there’s too much
I cannot translate but my son
can recognize Michael’s voice
anywhere & ABC easy
as 123 & that’s The Jackson 5
my American-born husband
corrects & won’t you please let me back
in your heart & I grew up with Michael’s voice
pushing the captive orca whale back
over a stone barricade & he pushed me
somewhere too so even as kids teased me
for loving of Free Willey & sour cream &
& Michael & called me buffalo legs & smells-
of-garlic & voted me most likely
to be uncovered as an alien & asked
if I was born to like red & hammers
I pressed play & play & play & play
on the cassette tape until
it unspooled & it don’t matter
& Keiko never could have cleared
that height without Carry me
like you are my brother & love me
like a mother & will you be there? & my son
hear my song unspooling too
your body can music & robot
can moonwalk & break
free of any man-made or imagined
walls & listen to your feet my love
they sing across so many languages

Julia Kolchinsky is the author of the poetry collections PARALLAX (University of Arkansas Press, 2025), 40 WEEKS (YesYes Books, 2023), Don’t Touch the Bones (Lost Horse Press, 2020), and The Many Names for Mother (Kent State University Press, 2019). Her recent awards include Hunger Mountain Review’s Ruth Stone Poetry Prize, Michigan Quarterly Review’s James A. Winn Prize in Nonfiction, and a Sustainable Arts Foundation Grant. She is assistant professor of English and creative writing at Denison University.